Monsieur Ben
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Mon nom est Benjamin Tan,
Dix-neuf ans cette année,
Juste accompli un cours sur l'Administration d;Hospitalité en Australie,
en attendant de servir mon service militaire bientôt,
J'aime cuisiner et bartending un alot,
J'aspire à briller pour Dieu dans le secteur d'hospitalité un jour
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Friday, October 22, 2010
, 1:15 AM
⇨Emotional Roller Coaster
As i look back into my life today..
I realise that all this while, I've indeed been lying to myself..
I mean.. really lying to myself.. A LOT!!
Deep down inside all this while, I have been lying to myself..
Over the many many occasions in my life, people has asked me about me, having regrets in life..
I would end up pondering and go "hmmmm.. definitely not.."
But being human beings.. I do have my regrets..
My biggest and only regret was not to cherish those who I am crazily in love with..
I would just end up letting my heart sway and end up making the same mistake over and over again..
Time and time again i told myself that I would never allow such things to happen to me..
But as time and time goes by, it just fall weakness to it and it puts me down..
I seriously abhore this roller coaster ride..
This turmoil within my emotions that I am in right now and really often..
I would just bottle up everything till one day, I reach my breaking point and go "BOOOM"..
Sad to say time and again, I just allow myself to fall prey by such thoughts and feelings..
As i type this post with tears in my eyes..
Deep down i told myself, no matter how man or strong i can be..
I am still human being..
I admit it I am weak.. I do, as well, need support from others..
C'mon Ben!!!! You gotta seriously be a man!! *Slap myself twice*
Stay Strong.. Fight on..
Believe in God!!!
Where is your faith you little fool!!!
How dumb can you be?
Are you gonna just let the devil win this long term battle?
Think about it, why is such a thing always happening to you??
It just can mean only one thing..
YES!! JUST ONE THING..
YOU HAVE YET TO GROW UP IN THIS AREA!!!
Be strong Ben.. Be strong..
You can do it..
I admit Father, that I am weak.. I truly need You.. Please be there for me Father..
I realise that all this while, I've indeed been lying to myself..
I mean.. really lying to myself.. A LOT!!
Deep down inside all this while, I have been lying to myself..
Over the many many occasions in my life, people has asked me about me, having regrets in life..
I would end up pondering and go "hmmmm.. definitely not.."
But being human beings.. I do have my regrets..
My biggest and only regret was not to cherish those who I am crazily in love with..
I would just end up letting my heart sway and end up making the same mistake over and over again..
Time and time again i told myself that I would never allow such things to happen to me..
But as time and time goes by, it just fall weakness to it and it puts me down..
I seriously abhore this roller coaster ride..
This turmoil within my emotions that I am in right now and really often..
I would just bottle up everything till one day, I reach my breaking point and go "BOOOM"..
Sad to say time and again, I just allow myself to fall prey by such thoughts and feelings..
As i type this post with tears in my eyes..
Deep down i told myself, no matter how man or strong i can be..
I am still human being..
I admit it I am weak.. I do, as well, need support from others..
C'mon Ben!!!! You gotta seriously be a man!! *Slap myself twice*
Stay Strong.. Fight on..
Believe in God!!!
Where is your faith you little fool!!!
How dumb can you be?
Are you gonna just let the devil win this long term battle?
Think about it, why is such a thing always happening to you??
It just can mean only one thing..
YES!! JUST ONE THING..
YOU HAVE YET TO GROW UP IN THIS AREA!!!
Be strong Ben.. Be strong..
You can do it..
I admit Father, that I am weak.. I truly need You.. Please be there for me Father..